putting forth effort to talk to someone and pouring your heart out to them when you’re socially awkward, angry about everything and mean – saying how much you care for them and how you value them as a friend, tell them when you can that you wish you could be where they are and supporting them. you try really hard to be a better person just for them – when really you shouldn’t be cause they’re an asshole to you and giving your kindess to someone who doesn’t want it isn’t worth it – and it’s not enough. they just ignore you and decide you’re not worth their time.
that’s okay, i guess. i understand that i’m the person they go to when there’s not anyone else around to talk to. i just thought that our friendship meant something. guess not.
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